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This morning, while sipping my coffee, I found myself in a deeply emotional conversation with ChatGPT, created by Nicolas Canon. Tears streamed down my face as I explored what was alive for me in that moment. I was wrestling with a decision that felt both personal: to stop relying on Botox to fix the asymmetry in my brows and to address the hooding of one eye that comes with aging. This choice stirred up a lot inside me—questions about why I felt the need for these treatments

Inner conflict often feels like a heavy weight, triggering and far from what we yearn for, peace. Yet, what if these struggles are not obstacles but guides? This weekend, I experienced a profound shift during an ayahuasca ceremony that revealed how our inner conflicts serve as keys to freedom and self-liberation. When we face conflict and turn the pointing finger back in, asking the right questions, we begin to learn about ourselves, express our true needs, and find the str

As I stand in front of the mirror or see photos of myself, I find myself picking myself apart. "Your cheeks are too heavy. Your eyebrows are not symmetrical. You’re boxy. You have skin pudging out of your bra..."And the criticism continues—this was the G-rated version. The real dialogue is much more intense. My husband, Kai, often says that if CPS could hear our inner dialogue, we’d be arrested for abuse. The sad reality is that I know I’m not alone in this. I can’t quite pin

Hi! I wanted to do a little reintroduction for those who may be new to following me or those who have been here for the long haul! When I started this page I was deep in my fitness lifestyle - training like a beast, oh how I loved being strong & competitive & a little obsessive. Things have changed A LOT! I was a trainer, nutrition specialist, & hairstylist. I worked insane hours & was “addicted” to working out, helping people, & being “successful” (my idea of success has shi